Starting Over (The Promise)

Each word that you had spoken was nothing I had heard
But I almost started choking ‘cause I knew every word.
I thought I was alone it was the card that I was dealt
But that same desperation was something you had felt.

And what I always craved like a never-ending thirst
You said it was a gift. I always saw it as a curse.
This emotion overwhelmed me but I kept it to myself
I wasn’t meant to keep it. It was meant for someone else.

I may have broke my promise but that was yesterday.
But the war I win tomorrow is the fight I start today.

Over, I’m starting over
Been pushed aside and left to die You’ve given up on me
But I’m starting over
I’m starting over

They told me not to worry. The pain would go away
But every time I closed my eyes the colour turned to grey.
I know that life is painful no matter what the length
My pain may never disappear but neither will my strength.

I cried, I cried, I cried (They never understood)
They tried, they tried, they tried (I knew they never would)

No one saw the scars. The tears become my friend
I guess I lost the line between the real and pretend.
The voices in my head drown out the whisper in my chest
But today that whisper’s screaming louder than the rest.

What did the demons see? Maybe they’re scared of me

The sticks and stones had broken and the words were fading fast
So today I will keep searching and give the finger to my past.

Over, I’m starting over
Been pushed aside and left to die You’ve given up on me
But I’m starting over
I’m starting over

I’ve turned around and walked away
From the demon I call yesterday
Over, I’m starting over

‘Cause all I felt was crying like drowning in the rain
But now I know that I can tell when others feel the same.
‘Cause when I held your hand and tell you we’re okay
My scars all started fading and the torment went away.

If I could be that shallow one that never feels the pain
I’d beg for my emotion back I wouldn’t last a day.
So take my mask away from me time to let it show
My story isn’t over ‘cause someone needs to know.

Over, I’m starting over
Been pushed aside and left to die
You’ve given up on me
But I’m starting over
I’m starting over

I’ve turned around and walked away
From the demon I call yesterday
Over, I’m starting over
(turn around, will ya’ turn around)

Over, I’m starting over
Over, I’m starting over
My story, it isn’t over